One of the darkest days in US history - I'm out

There are people whose kids are NOT coming home from school EVER again.  I don't really give a crap about weight loss, or anything else so stupid compared to their pain.  Just too much in this world is so evil.  I have seen it first hand with this blog.  Evil, sick, demented stalkers who are capable of almost anything.  You never know about people in this world.  The lowest form of life is someone that would hurt and KILL a little baby.  He walked in to a school and killed a class of kindergartners??!!!  Sorry if I don't give a sh!t about your weigh-in today.  I really hope for the best with everyone out there in Internet land, but I can't see the point of all this "look at me" stuff when there is so much that is going on in the world.  (I'm sooo guilty of using this forum for validation) I am so glad I have met a handful of great people here who WILL be my true friends forever.  I really appreciate all the love and support from the sane group of you who are so giving and caring and have left some GREAT comments when I needed a friend or support. I need a break.  Really.  Not a fake one that people post about then they are back in 2 days because they need the attention.  Peace Out.

AAAHHH! I don't know why I do this to myself... so I guess I do have something to blog about...

My mom and her husband are coming for Christmas.  They used to call me "two tons" as a nickname when I was in high school and beyond.  I can't express enough the level of anxiety I have over their visit.  I feel that all they will notice was that my WLS was a "failure."  I feel like a failure enough as it is without a reminder.  So... not that it will help, but I am going on a liquid diet for the next 14 days until they arrive in order to feel like I will at least lose some bloat.  It may not help at all but maybe it will help me feel more in control?  I am scared.  Scared of being stared at, looked down upon.  I LOVE Christmas and I'm sure they will not say anything to my face, but what is said behind my back to other family members always gets back to me.  I hate being a fat failure.  I hate that I am stuck.  I hate that I have yet to have the Christmas card pic without a fat face.  Oh man.  So much for a Merry Christmas. :(  I just have to keep reminding myself all that I have to be grateful for and play that over and over in my head. 

On a happier note, here is my house all lit up...

 Last weekend we were able to go to the downtown Christmas parade where the parking was a long distance from the street, but I made it just fine thanks to my surgery.

 Today is also my 9th wedding anniversary so I will bore you with some wedding pics... :)  I am sad when I see how fat I was.  I could hardly stand.  My husband had to hold my hands during the ceremony so I would not fall because my back hurt so bad.  It's kinda painful to look at these pics, but I am sooo grateful to have a husband that loves me for me.  Fat, infertility, medical issues, strokes, ALL before he married me.  At least I know he didn't marry me for my looks. :)

 Dee that does the "Dee's Tips and Trivia" is the red head in the middle. :)

Quick peek at our Christmas tree... :)

Before...

 After...

I hope everyone is enjoying the season!

Dee's Tips and Trivia...

Previous Questions –

~ In 1914, President Wilson denounced what material object as a symbol of “the arrogance of wealth”

Automobile

~ Which country leads the world in the mining and production of silver?

Mexico

~ What university did Bill Gates drop out of?

Harvard

Tips –

~ Add a capful of hair cream rinse to the final rinse water when washing sweaters.

~ Spray children’s drawings and artwork with hairspray to keep colors from fading and smudging.

~ Righty tighty, lefty loosey.

Trivia –

~ Intelligent people have more copper in their hair.

~ The average number of people airborne over the US in any given hour is 61,000.

~ In Shakespeare’s time, mattresses were secured on bed frames by ropes.  When you pulled on the ropes, the mattress tightened, making the bed firmer to sleep on.  Hence, the phrase…”Good night, sleep tight.”

This date in history (November 30^th)

~ 1782 – The US and Britain signed the preliminary peace articles in Paris, ending the Revolutionary War.

~ 1835 – Samuel Clemens was born.

~ 1940 – Lucille Ball and Desi Arnaz were married.

~ 1982 – Thriller was released.  Can you believe it’s been 30 years?

~ 2004 – Ken Jennings streak of 74 wins on Jeopardy came to an end.

Questions –

~ What do bulletproof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers and laser printers have in common?

~ What is the most popular boat name?

~ It developed in the early 1970’s simply as a form of exercise.  In 1981 it became a competitive sport for individuals and groups.  What is it called?

Quote –

“To get ahead and stay ahead, use your head.”

Enjoy your weekend!

Dee

BORED with Weight Loss - new pic of me

I'm so over it.  I don't have much to update.  I guess I will update here when I have my revision which will be in a few months.  In the mean time, I am living my life.  Not gaining, not losing, NOT OBESESSING over weight.  I am living.  I hope you all are doing the same. :) 

Happy Belated Thanksgiving.

Below: My home filled with love and laughter for Thanskgiving... :)

 Below: me after our family pics

Sorry

Lately I'm just to dang busy to post here or read blogs.  I am too busy living my life.  What a blessing huh? :)  Here's a few pics of my sweet baby's first birthday party! :)

Below: Election Party at my friend's house...

My baby got tubes in her ears yesterday...

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Previous Questions –

~ What is an entrepot?

A warehouse

~ What is a geep?

A cross between a goat and a sheep

~ What is the most recorded song in history with over 2,500 cover versions?

Yesterday

Tips –

~ Use a staple remover when trying to add things to your key ring.

~ Place a couple of rubber bands around an open paint can to wipe your brush on and keep paint off the side of the can.

~ Cut toilet paper rolls and use as a cuff to save your wrapping paper (visual below).

			Cut

 

Trivia –

~ The word “peach” was once used as a slang term for informing against or betraying an accomplice.

~ The male name Andrew is from the Greek word for “manly.”

~ The 1960s phrase “flower power” was coined by Beat Generation poet Allen Ginsberg.  I remember it well. J

This date in history (October 19^th)

~ 1765 – The Stamp Act Congress met and drew up a declaration of rights and liberties.

~ 1933 – Basketball was introduced to the 1936 Olympics.

~ 1983 – The US Senate approved a bill establishing a national holiday in honor of Martin Luther King, Jr.

~ 1985 – The first Blockbuster store opens.

~ 1985 – Take On Me was #1.

Questions –

~ Who sang Take On Me?

~ Who is Todd Jones?

~ How many states border an ocean?

Quote –

“Never part without loving words to think of during your absence.  It may be that you will not meet again in this life.”  Jean Paul Richter

I hope all of you have a splendid week!

Dee

Still no movement :(

No surprise to me.  My body can't lose weight anymore unless I am under 800 calories per day which I CAN'T do without the revision.  I am basically starving just to maintain.  On a lighter note, today I went to the pumpkin patch and was able to walk around and stand for well over two hours with no problem.  LOVe that I can live my life.  I STILL owe that to the VSG.

Ggggrrrr...

I have been restricting myself to around 800 calories per day (STARVING) and this morning the scale said I am UP two pounds.  I am on my period so I will wait a few days before I throw it through the window.

EEEKKK! :)

So I decided to try and eat under 1200 calories per day to see if I can do it.  I have low expectations. :)  I have no choice if I want the scale to go down.  One of the "side effects" for me from the VSG.  I have other side effects too... walking, having no physical restrictions I can't handle, more activity in my family life and a great respect and gratefulness for life in general.  I'll take those side effects any day. :) 

Pics of the day... My 3 year old and I at our local high school football game.  My oldest daugher was playing with the high school band that night (her middle school was invited to play with them and go ont he field.:) and I had a ball taking part and enjoying myself with my family.

 Last weekend we enjoyed our first fire of the season after putting up Halloween decorations.  I was actually putting things up instead of telling my family what to do while sitting on the couch. :)

* I have to say... I am still at least 100 pounds overweight but my life is sooo different.  As much as I am disappointed in the weird things that happened to my body after the VSG and sad that I need a revision in order to continue losing, I am sooooo happy I had it done.  Soooo happy.  I have my moments of being down, but how can I complain when my wish of being able to walk around has been fulfilled.  I am working everyday on trying to focus on that fact and realize everything else is icing on the cake... Man, I cry just thinking about it... At the end of the day the pic above are the reasons I did it and are STILL the reasons why I'm glad I did.

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Last Week’s Questions –

~ What is the Uncola?

7-Up

~ Which of these electric appliances consumes the most electricity per hour of use?  TV, Dishwasher, Toaster

Toaster

~ There are five pairs of U.S. Presidents who share the same last name.  What are they?

Adams, Harrison, Johnson, Roosevelt, Bush

Tips –

~ Make your own cooking spray without the additives.  One part olive oil to five parts water and shake before each use.

~ Use ketchup packets as icepacks.  They are the perfect size for kid’s bumps and bruises.

~ For puffy cupcakes fill liners ¾ full cook at 325 degrees for 25 minutes.

Trivia –

~ George Washington’s face was badly scarred from smallpox.

~ http stands for hypertext transfer protocol.

~ The first stethoscope, invented in 1816, was made from a roll of paper.

This date in history (September 28^th)

~ 1542 – San Diego was discovered by Portuguese navigator Juan Cabrillo.  Hence, Cabrillo Beach.

~ 1924 – The 1^st around-the-world flight was completed by two U.S. army planes in 175 days.

~ 1955 – The World Series was televised in color for the 1^st time.

~ 1968 – Hey Jude hit #1 and stayed there for 9 weeks.

~ 2009 – iTunes music store reached 2 billion downloads.

Questions –

~ What is an entrepot?

~ What is a geep?

~ What is the most recorded song in history with over 2,500 cover versions?

Quote –

“Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.” Ralph Waldo Emerson

- Dee 

Some weird things... (and some party pics!:)

TMI alert!  So I had my "period" for SIXTEEN days this month.  My PCOS is RAGING right now and it sucks.  2nd weird thing... Lately I've been feeling some restriction??!!  Haven't felt ANY since 5 months out of surgery and now I catch myself getting full VERY fast.  I'm not complaining about that, but the down side is I am hungry again in about 30 minutes to an hour.  Yes, I eat protein.  Third weird thing... my hair is falling out... FAST. Especially on top.  I had some hair loss about one month out of surgery which was way over a year ago but it was short lived.  Can't understand why I am getting it again. 

I have appointments next month with an endocrinologist, orthopedic surgeon and a hemotologist.  I might as well take advantage of this time trying to dig deeper than just weight loss when it comes to my health. 

Here are some pics from my oldest daugher's 13th birthday... :)

 Below: the kids all waiting for my daughter in the arcade... 

  Below: the cake and treat bag table... the cake was amazing!  My friend did such a great job and it was soooo cute for a 13 year old.  Real "Cake Boss" type stuff. :)

 Below: the little specs on the tables are fake jewels in her birthday colors. 

There are also candles on the table.

 Below: the bowling lanes...

Total: 37 kids! :)

So busy, no time to think

I teach preschool, watch a daycare child, I have 4 out of 5 kids in activities. (dance, football, scouts, air force academy, church groups, flute lessons, yearbook, swim school...)  I am also a room mom, football team manager, church music conductor, mom and wife.  Every day, all day I am on the move.  Last night I was up late making the treat bags for my daughter's 13th birthday.  We are having a "team dream" party for her at the bowling alley with 30 friends.  Pizza, drinks, bowling, laser tag and arcade games.  Not to mention a custom cake, table decorations, new outfit, treat bags, fake rhinestones to cover the table, a professional photographer and set up.  Here's the thing... I am tired.  REALLY tired.  I won't lie.  But yesterday I had a moment where I broke down and cried and not from being overwhelmed.  It was because I was soooo grateful to be able to do these things.  I wasn't directing others from a chair.  I am doing all these things on my own.  100% me.  When I am teaching preschool, I have so much fun with the kids.  They are so happy to be there and have no idea what things used to be like for me.  I was walking to different stores with my older daughter last night to find just the right bday outfit :) when I realized that was a moment less than 2 years ago I could not have had.  I can't say I still don't think about my weight every day.  I need the revision but it will have to wait until the loan is paid off from the house flood.  In the mean time, I am LIVING.  I still wonder why food addiction has such a grip on me.  I know I would eat much more if I was able and whether or not my surgery worked to it's full extent or not, at least it preforms the duties it needs to in order to save me from me.  I am not logging my calories these days but I need too... when I have time. :)

Pic of the day... the treat bags... :)

Moving on...

Ok, I think I have made a decision to stop feeling sorry for myself... I am going to try 1200 calories per day for 30 days and see if I can make it. If for no other reason, to prove to myself that I can have control. I know I have to be under 800 calories for weight loss, but not gaining is good at this point too. There's no point in going back to where I was because of this set back. I have too much going for me to go back to that place. I need prayers. :)

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Questions –

~ Who are the 4 people on Mt. Rushmore?

Jefferson, Washington, Lincoln, Roosevelt

~ Who is Patricia Andrzejewski?

Pat Benatar

~ The expression “Do not fold, spindle, or mutilate” first appeared in the 1960’s, and applied to what?

IBM punched cards for computer programs

Tips –

~ Clean your headlights with toothpaste.  Apply with a dry cloth in a circular motion until all the grime comes off.  Rinse with water and wipe down.

~ Homemade dishwasher soap-Now I don’t have a dishwasher, but I’ve been told this works well.  Put 1 tsp oxygen bleach and ½ tsp Dawn dish soap in the dispenser.  Then ½ cup white vinegar in a bowl or cup on the TOP rack of the machine. 

~ Use a potato peeler to get even, small slices of veggies for salads.

Trivia –

~ Polar bears can smell a seal from 20 miles away.

~ An average of 3 billion cups of tea are consumed daily around the world.

~ The side of a hammer is called a cheek.

This date in history (August 31^st)

~ 1887 – The kinetoscope was patented by Thomas Edison.  The device was used to produce moving pictures.

~ 1920 – The first news program to be broadcast on radio was aired.

~ 1940 – Lawrence Olivier and Vivian Leigh were married.

~ 1949 – Richard Gere was born.  J

~ 1987 – Michael Jackson’s “Bad” video aired for the first time.

Questions –

~ There are two US states each of which borders 8 other states.  What are their names?

~ Can you give a common last name for four famous brothers whose first names were Joe, John, Bob and Eddie?

~ Joe drank 1/3 of a glass of milk in one swallow, then drank 4/5 of the remaining milk in another swallow.  What fraction of the original milk was left?

Questions I can’t answer-

~ Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

~ If the professor on Gilligan’s Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can’t he fix a hole in a boat?

~ Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

Quote –

“The whole of life is but a moment of time.  It is our duty, therefore to use it, not misuse it.”  Plutarch

Here we are at the last holiday of the summer.  Go out and make it one safe and spectacular weekend!

Dee

Home

Just moved back in last night after being in a hotel for a month while our house was repaired.  So much to do, so much to think about.  I don't know where to go from here.

Feeling Beat down...

My birthday is in 3 days.  I will be 35 and I this time last year I had soooo many dreams about whatI would do to celebrate turning 35.  #1., I thought I would be at goal weight.  I thought my surgery would be like every one else and I would not have complications.  I thought I would be low enough in weight to zip line.  I did not imagine I would be living in a hotel with five kids and a husband because my house flooded.  I had a goal to go tubing on the lake.  Last year although I went on the boat which at the time was a major accomplishment, I could not tube because I was still too fat.  This summer I was going to go back and tube.  I have not been to the lake, I can't face another failure.  My surgery gave me a much better quality of life, but then caused a lifetime of dieting in order to say under 1200 calories per day in order to not GAIN weight.  There is NO WAY that without my sleeve getting fixed I can stay between 600-800 calories per day in order to LOSE.  I will now be fighting to stay fat forever since my surgery money has to go towards my house ins. deductible.  I am feeling so bogged down right now.  I can't imagine accepting this body for the rest of my life.  I need to let go of my dreams but don't know how.  What keeps m going is looking at my kids and husband an trying to feel grateful for what I have.  And I am.  I'm still grateful for every step.  I am grateful for the ability to be a better mom and wife.  But... It's hard to let go of a dream.  It's hard to let go of something you have imagined your entire life.  My first memory of trying to lose weight was at 5 years old.  I was told by my mom that I was getting to chubby for a bathing suit.  By 7 she told me I need make-up so at least my face would be pretty until I could lose weight.  At 9 she told me if I could not lose 20 pounds by the end of summer I would not get new school clothes.  School started in a month.  I didn't lose and I didn't get new clothes for a couple of years.  I had been dreaming of fitting in, looking like everyone else, being "pretty" since I was old enough to have memories and now I am just supposed to let go.  Now my fight becomes starving just so I can not gain weight.  I am bitter about this change of focus.  I am mad at myself because I chose this.  I am mad because the surgery that saved my life is also the one that changed my body forever.  Most sleeve or WLS patients I know have to eat under 1200 to maintain.  It's normal in the WLS world.  BUT, that is to MAINTAIN.  NOt to lose.   To lose the weight they needed to eat far less.  I know my sleeve can get fixed to provide the restriction I need to help be reach my goals, but now it's years away since I can no longer afford the loan due to my house.  This means at least two years of fighting, starving and being cranky just to maintain.  Yes, I guess I am feeling sorry for myself.  I am still the fat girl at church,in my neighborhood, my kids school, in my own home.  Fatty never left me.  She was just sitting around waiting for an opportunity to tell me I was stuck with her forever and rub it in my face.  Looks like she got her way.  That's what I get for thinking it could turn out a different way.  I'm sure my blog stalkers will enjoy this post.  You were right.  I have failed AGAIN.  I hope that brings you the joy you so desperately want at my expense.  You were right. 

Surgery canceled AGAIN!!!!!

This time it's because our 13 year old daughter flooded our house by stopping up her sink and leaving it running all day.  This is getting to be ridiculous.  We are living in a hotel for at least 10-14 days while the house is repaired.  I have to use my surgery money to pay our huge deductible.  I am overwhelmed. 

New surgery date

August 7th.  That's three days before my birthday.  Back to the 600 calories per day liquid diet for me. :(  The good news is that the hemotologist said I am ok to move forward with surgery.  She will do a FULL blood work-up on me the day before surgery to make sure everything is ok.

NO SURGERY TUESDAY

I am having some bruising all over my body over the past 11 days or so since I went off my blood thinner to prepare for surgery.  I need to see a hematologist to find out what's going on before I go under again.  I am bummed.  :(  I intend to try to eat around 1000 calories per day in order to maintain my weight until I can reschedule surgery.

Feeling much better~!

I've heard that the first week of the liquid diet is always the hardest.  I would have to agree.  I am feeling much better and have gone THREE days without a migraine.  :)  Today I had a great family day.  We went to the Library, Costco, and our local downtown area.  I was able to walk around and keep up with everyone just fine.  Trust me when I say there isn't a minute of my life I am not thanking God for the change in my quality of life.  It was surreal to be able to walk around the library for OVER AN HOUR and look at so many book choices.  Before my surgery I had not been to a library since high school.  (almost 20 years ago) My husband used to have to take the kids without me.  Costco was just as fun. :)  I know most people there are walking around totally unaware of the blessing of just being able to walk.  A trip to the store is something to be celebrated.  It's been over a year and I am still not tired of these everyday things. 

* 3 days til' my revision surgery *

Below: a pic I took today while we were driving to our downtown area...

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Questions –

~ Cameron Crowe wrote (in my opinion) the best Sean Penn movie EVER.  What was it?

Fast Times at Ridgemont High

~ How much food and drink (in weight) does an average person ingest in one year?

One ton

~ Who is Peter Gene Hernandez?

Bruno Mars

Tips –

~ Clean your counters and table tops with hydrogen peroxide to kill germs and leave a fresh smell.  Put on your dishrag when you wipe,  or spray the counters.

~ Moving? Pack your plates with foam disposable plates between them.

~ Use scotch tape or nail polish to relieve an insect bite.  Blocking the oxygen from getting into the bite will stop the itching.

Trivia –

~ On average a man spends 5 months of his life shaving.

~ The only insect that can turn its head is the praying mantis.

~ The average human dream only lasts 2 to 3 seconds.

This date in history (July 20^th)

~ 1881 – Sitting Bull, a fugitive since the Battle of the Little Big Horn, surrenders.

~ 1908 – In the US, the Sullivan Ordinance bars women from smoking in public facilities.

~ 1963 – Surf City hit #1.

~ 1969 – Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin became the 1^st men to walk on the moon.

~ 1975 – Steven Van Zandt performed for the 1^st time with the E Street Band.

Questions –

~ Who sang Surf City?

~ Who is Joseph Levitch?

~ What is the last bone to fuse in the human body?

Quote –

“The difference between can and cannot in only three letters.  Three letters that can shape your life’s direction.”  Remez Sasson

I hope all of you have one heck of a weekend!

Dee

Think before you print -Go Green

I went here yesterday...

Yes, I conquered yet ANOTHER water slide! :)  I flew down that thing at about 100 mph... lol  We took the kids to an indoor swim center and had a great time.  I was able to keep up with the kids and I had lots of fun. :)  A lot of people ask me why I am doing this now that I can do SO MUCH MORE than before my 1st VSG.  It's because I still can't really sleep in a bed.  My back and hips hurt sooo much it's impossible to to lay down for more than a minute.  Sleeping in a chair has now caused extreme neck problems.  I have to go to physical therapy for all three things several times per week.  I am ready to live with less pain.  The more weight I have off my joints, the better it will be.

Pre-op work-up today

I have to drive about 45 minutes to the new hospital.  I can't get the surgery done at the original hospital (because it's to expensive) which makes me a little scared because it is a center for excellence, but it's the same dr at the new hospital.  I am on day 5 of an almost unbearable headache.  The kind that pounds in your head, your teeth, your neck... I am starving.  * 9 days til' surgery.  I am questioning this move every minute of every day.  Hanging in there second by second.  The regular pre-op diet I did last time allows for 1200 calories per day so I got to have more shakes.  BUT... After already having the sleeve, eating/drinking 1200 calories per day is too much calories for weight loss.

On a happier note... I french braided my 3 year old's hair yesterday for church.  She told me she was a church princess. :)

Every minute is torture...

Every minute I am talking myself out of giving up.  The liquid diet is sooooo hard.  My head hurts, my body aches... I have to make sure I am not getting over 600 calories per day if I want to lose enough weight to shrink my liver before surgery.  600 calories per day is about two protein drinks and a chicken breast ALL DAY.  Not my idea of fun. :(  Sorry, these posts will be whiny for a while.

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Last Week’s Questions –

~ What is pomology?

The study of fruit

~ What show was Burt Ward in and what was his character’s name?

Batman and he was Robin

~ Who is Farouk Bulsara?

Freddy Mercury

Tips

~ Grill your fish on a bed of lemons to infuse flavor and prevent sticking to the grill.

~ Use boiling water instead of tap water to make clear ice.

~ Use a muffin tin as a condiment dish.  Now, that’s a creative idea.

Trivia –

~ Louisiana is home to 80% of the world’s crayfish.

~ A duck has 3 eyelids.

~ Shakespeare invented the words “assassination” and “bump”.

This date in history (July 13^th)

~ 1865 – Horace Greeley advises his readers to “Go west, young man”.

~ 1942 – Harrison Ford was born.  Yikes, Han Solo is 70 years old.

~ 1957 – Cameron Crowe was born.

~ 1960 – John Kennedy was nominated for President.

~ 1974 – Eric Clapton released “I Shot the Sheriff”.

~ 1985 – Live Aid concert performed in London and Philadelphia.

~ 1990 – Ghost opens

Questions –

~ Cameron Crowe wrote (in my opinion) the best Sean Penn movie EVER.  What was it?

~ How much food and drink (in weight) does an average person ingest in one year?

~ Who is Peter Gene Hernandez?

Quote –

“The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our attention.”  Thich Nhat Hanh

Make it a great weekend!

- Dee

So this is hell... :/

It's amazing how a liquid diet can take me to such a dark place so fast.  I am one cranky lady.  Everything is annoying.  Including typing this. :)  13 days til' my revision surgery.  I am ready to get this sleeve fixed and move forward with what I intended the FIRST time I got it done.  My 35th birthday is coming up next month.   Last year I envisioned being so much farther out in this WL journey by now. 

Anyway, on a happy note... I just took a mini-vacation to Austin with my family and I was out and about the entire time.  Every day, several times a day I was thanking the good Lord for the blessing of this surgery.  I swam in a lake, floated in a creek, went on a tour of the capital with my family, walked around a museum, toured UT, went on a little train ride (and fit in the seats)... All without restrictions. :)  What a wonderful change it was from our last summer vacation when I was sitting in a wheelchair.  Nothing more than a bystander watching everything go by.  This time I was a full participant and trust me when I say I spend most of that time in such a wonderful, grateful state.  You can truly see the blessings if you have been to the darkest places and I know know that I would not go back and change anything.  Every step, every walk with my family, every trip to the store I am grateful.

Panic is setting in

I really hope I am doing the right thing with this surgery.  I hope it's for the right reasons and the torture I am about to put my body through will be worth it.  All I can go on is past experience and that experience tells me it's the best thing to do.  I pray it is.  7 days til the all liquid diet (pure hell on earth) starts.  I fear my posts will take an ugly turn on or around July 10th. :)

Splash Pad fun

Another blessing of losing weight...

taking my kids to fun places like this and being able to walk around. :)

*23 days til' surgery*

It's on it's way... :/

PMS.  I feel it in every part of my body.  This is one of the times where I HATE PCOS because I get the PMS symptoms so early each month.  :(  On a happier note, Last night I was able to co-host a baby shower for a sweet friend.  It was a lot of fun and I didn't feel any problems with setting up or cleaning afterwards.  It was so nice to feel normal.  The shower was held at the same place where I rode the waterslide a couple of weeks ago. :)

* Countdown... my surgery is 28 days from today... 2 weeks til the dreaded all liquid diet.  I HATE that part.  For me, it was the worst part of my last sleeve surgery... :(