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Monday, March 5, 2012

Keeps getting worse...

I was trying to find out how much I paid in medical last year for my taxes so I called the hospital. They told me the amount I paid, then told me the amount i OWE... $9,700! WTH??? I was NOT expecting that number. It turns out that they were behind in the billing and so that is why I had not received all the invoices. I thought I had about $3,000 due was was making payments. This changes a lot. #1, I can't afford the gym or a personal trainer anymore :( My trainer is going to give me things to do at home, but this sucks big time. #2, Even if I do get approved at this point, will they do the surgery because I owe so much money? I am going to try to pay as much as possible to show them good faith. Our medical insurance SUCKS and only pays like 60% so if they do allow me to get the surgery, how much MORE will that add to my huge total? The $9,700 is not all from my surgery. If you remember I was hospitalized for about a week about a year in a half ago for all obesity related issues. (It was when I knew I needed surgery) Then, I had to get all the clearances from neurology, hematology, cardiology and then I had physical therapy for months after my surgery. I will need all this again to get another surgery. Wow. One smack in the face after another. No happy posts here for a while... It seems to me that when things start to suck, it happens in waves. This wave is crashing on me. the worst part is I feel trapped in this body.


I feel like all this stuff happening will keep me here. :( I am still grateful to be able to walk and move around, so I have to focus on that, but it gets harder and harder to not want more. I would love to be back/hip pain free, I would love to not have sleep apnea, I would love to get rid of the PCOS which raveges my body... Whatever.

9 comments:

Lori said...

I am so sorry. You are in my prayers.
Lori

Sunny said...

All just stumbling blocks. You will get there, it is just a longer process that first thought. Hang in there.

FreeJulie said...

Ah, sorry about the expensive medical bills, Lisa! What a shock to find out. :(

You are doing so well - just keep pushing through all the obstacles in your path and you'll keep kicking butt and get where you want to be. I'm rooting for you!

Amanda said...

I'm so sorry :( Just hang in there.

susan said...

Yikes. I do understand how upset you must feel right now. Shed those tears. Stomp your feet and throw your fists. ... and then keep these hurdles in perspective.
These are hurdles that you CAN jump over. You are a smart woman. You know how to eat well. You know how to exercise. You know how to pay attention to your triggers and how to use self-control.
You got this. You totally do.
You. Good food. Exercise. Prayer. Let's do this.

That's my pep talk. :)

kristi said...

Stay on track and try to do as much as you can. Dr bills suck!

❀❀ Dawn (Lay Down My Idols) ❀❀ said...

Don't give up! You've come such a long way - these are stumbling blocks. Persevere. ((( hugs )))
Dawn

Pining for Pinterest said...

I am so sorry to hear that! I hate when it just seems to be piling up. Prayers your way!

eatthedamncupcake said...

I lost all my weight, 130 pounds, without ever going to a gym or using a trainer. I believe you can continue your weight loss on your own, you just need to have more faith in yourself. I am, however, so sorry to hear about your hospital debt. :( That is discouraging but try to focus on where you are now and how far you've come. You can move forward from here.