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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

My update

This is for the hundreds of people who e-mail asking about me. First, I am soooo sorry I only can have 100 invites to the private site per blogger. I am making this un-private for a small time so I can update everyone. I can never express how much it means to me that perfect strangers care about me! What a joy and a blessing. All your words, prayers and concerns have warmed my heart. I love knowing that there are good people out there especially after being cyber bullied. I have a renewed faith in people. :)

Reminder.. I did NOT have the bypass or the band. I had the VSG. My update: I can now go potty by myself. lol I can get out of a chair by myself, but after a while it hurts to much to keep going. I am still in lots of pain, but it is getting a little better each day. I am on 2-3oz of broth and/or liquid protein only for the next month. I am supposed to drink about 60oz of water per day but that is very hard right now because I can only take small sips every 10 minutes or so. I was in the hospital for two nights and 3 days. I have been trapped at home since I left the hosp. I am stir crazy. My days consist of taking meds, vitamins, walking laps around my kitchen and resting. I feel useless. I am VERY sad and resentful that I cant eat. It hurts to watch my family eat around me. I have to stress that this is a huge life change and should not be done to your body for vanity purposes. I would NOT have done this if I and my dr/s didn't feel like my life was in danger. If you can walk, don't have heart problems etc, PLEASE try to commit yourself to a healthy life change without surgery or doing something to your body you can never take back. I was able to stay on a 1200 calorie diet for quite some time leading up to this surgery so I know it is possible, but the decision I made was for my life only. For those who say you are not hungry after surgery, don't count on that being true for everyone. I am starving. I cry for food. This is going to be a HARD journey. One I may hate most of the time. I wish I could share this with everyone, but I can't deal with bullying during such a hard time in my life. I appreciate everyone sooooo much for asking about me and hope to make this public again in the future when I feel it is safe to talk about my life without hate and ugliness being thrown my way. Again, I am NOT an expert on surgery and don't recommend it to others. I do recommend that everyone ask their dr. before doing ANY WL program in order to make an informed decision. I did this and moved forward the way I thought was best. I pray I made the right choice. Only time will tell.

43 comments:

spunkysuzi said...

Hon all your posts just came on google reader! Did you make your blog public??

Lisa said...

just for today like I said in the post... lol

Lisa said...

I am sure it is so hard, but you're doing it and that's what matters! I think it will be a HUGE blessing in our life. I am glad to be following your story! I wish only the best for you.

spunkysuzi said...

I was so worried about you i didn't read the post :)

Lisa said...

it's nice to be cared about! thx! :)

Amanda said...

I was wondering what happened! Sorry you have had to deal with more drama and hate, and I hope you will make the blog public again when the time is right. Congratulations on getting through the last few weeks! I can't imagine what you are going through, and am so happy for you that it is getting easier. I hope that it keeps getting better and easier :-) Good thoughts for you!

Heather @ A Table for One, Please said...

I'm so glad you changed your date so that you would have help. I know you will feel better and better as time goes on, less pain and adjusting to your new eating patterns. Hang in there! We're all rooting for you!

Michelle said...

Glad you poppd back out to let everyone know you're ok. I was worried something had happened but understand your need for privacy.

Elle Bee said...

Lisa, do the doctors say your hunger will subside with time? I hope it will. I hope the days of your recovery just fly by. You are already well on your way!

Laura P said...

So glad to hear that you are able to start doing things on your own even if it is for a short time period. Eventually, as you heal, you should be able to keep going for longer spurts.

Thank you for sharing your journey & allowing me to follow along.

~Laura~

sarah said...

You can do this. We are all here for you.

Rebecca said...

Wish you'd stay public! I would love to keep reading your progress.

Kathy said...

blessings to you .....

Sunny said...

I;s so glad you are doing well. Thanks for the update. Keep up the great work and it will get easier. You are such an inspiration for me. :)

WrayLynn said...

I really hope your hunger diminishes soon! That must be agony. Hang in there and I hope the pain goes away soon and you can get out of the house.

TK84 said...

Hi Lisa thank you for making your blog public again for the update. I have never stopping thinking about you and praying for you xoxo

Tracie said...

Oh, Lisa... sending hugs your way. I hope you feel much better each day.

jdelaneygamc said...

Oh Lisa, I'm glad you made it public for just a little. You are such an inspiration to others. I will have 16 years under my belt next month from gastric bypass. I know it's different but there is so much going in one's head where food is concerned. I understand how hard it is when others can eat. Even now, I still catch myself ordering the way I did over 16 years ago when dining out sometimes. Still drives me crazy.

Land family said...

It's too late to call one way or the other. I'm glad you did the surgery because I think you were running out of time and options. Your children need you Lisa! Thank you so much for making this public, if only temporary. I have missed reading your blog so much, and was out of town when you made that one post asking who is there. I am so sorry reading about your mother. And I'm so sorry that she has caused you so much stress during this time. Love and prayers to you-it will get better and easier. Congrats on being under 300! That is incredible!

Ash said...

Thank you so much for the update. I am glad to hear that you are doing better and I am sure that in a few weeks you are going to feel amazing. Just keep taking it day by day and enjoying your loving family. You are stronger than you may think for making the decision and following though and one day your children will thank you for going through the pain and discomfort because you are adding years to your life everyday.

Something About Kellie said...

I am glad everything went well with surgery :)

Big Girl Slim said...

I am so happy you are back! I have missed your blog so much. Im am now going to spend the next hour catching up! I hope you are well!

Kelly said...

everyday it will get a little better, right? :)

mamajuliana said...

Hi Lisa!!!!
I am keeping you in prayer. I am glad you opened up your blog for a bit so we can find out how you are doing, I was worried.

You are such a strong woman to make such a life changing decision and to be so open and honest about things.

Please find a way to keep us informed about how you are doing, my friend.

The journey is hard, but oh so worth it to see your babies grow up!

Amanda said...

First I have to say...great post:) And I am so gad each day is better! i just know by Summer time you will be feeling great and you will remember back on this time and be so proud of yourself for enduring something so hard!

-Grace- said...

I'm so happy to still be here and following your journey!!!

I'm glad surgery went well and I hope you are back to feeling good in no time :)

Denise said...

Holy Cow! I am so proud of your progress! I pray for peace for you!

Update of my own! I am on day 4 of WW successfully!


I am a perfect stranger but I feel such a kinship with you! I love you Lisa Hill!

We will succeed together!!!

Autumn said...

I am so glad each day you're feeling better. I understand your struggle and hope that as each day passes those feelings pass. You are one tough lady!

neneabean said...

Thanks for opening up the site temporarily. I've been wondering how you are doing. Sounds like this is a really tough time, but I think you're being very brave! You can do it!!

Lauren said...

YOU CAN DO IT! :) I'm excited for you about this journey, and like you said, it will be difficult... but in the long run, it will be SO worth it! Keep up your positive attitude - remember that we all believe in you! :)

Lori said...

Lisa,
I can't help but believe that things will get better. You went through so much evaluation and more than one doctor agreed with you that this was the way to go. All of you couldn't be wrong.

Have you ever had surgery before? Sometimes the anesthesia can work on you emotionally. If you haven't had surgery before, you wouldn't know that. If that is the problem in a few weeks once all that is out of your system, you'll suddenly feel great. It's happened to me.

You'll probably still miss the food for a while, but it won't be as bad.

Hang in there. They're a lot of people praying for you.
Lori

Amy Veloz said...

Way to go, Lisa! I know it can't be easy...at all, but how amazing that you are doing it! Hang in there! I hope your desire for food eases some so you can be happier. Love reading about the progress! And under 300...AMAZING!

Amanda Kiska said...

You are doing so well. I know when you start feeling better, things won't look so bleak (and when you can eat again). Just keep plugging away!

Taryl said...

I'm so glad to hear you're doing well, with no physical issues post-surgery! I'm sorry you're mourning food and dealing with toxic family, but you can conquer this. You can.

I'm glad to check in on you, I do hope your blog goes public again but I understand eating to avoid the harassment you've been getting. Work hard, stay strong, and keep on slimming down. You have your whole life ahead of you!

Vampyra7 said...

You made the right choice. Sometimes the right thing is harder than it seems like it should be. Congrats on the progress you've made so far! ~Sarah

Christine said...

good job lisa! I know it's hard,but it is so worth while. In one hundred pounds you will know why. big hugs.

Melissa said...

I was bummed and concerned about you when I tried to visit last week...I was looking forward to reading an update. Thanks for opening it up so the rest of us can catch up. You will have many challenges ahead as you adjust to your new lifestyle but I have a few friends who have gone through it and the rewards from health to a new lease on life is so worth it. I have faith you will survive this time because you are a survivor...many hugs and prayers are going out to you.

Donna said...

Hi Lisa thanks so much for the update, was wondering how you were going. Im glad all is going well for you.I look forward to when you are public again. love reading you blog. Best wishes Donna.xxx Australia

Laura said...

I am so sorry, Lisa, that you have had to endure not only the hardship of losing weight, but having others bully you. You are beautiful, Lisa, and you have been so supportive of me and apparently others on so many other fronts!

Hang in there, take it day by day, minute by minute, second by second if you have to. We're here for you - always.

Hugs,
Laura

Diana said...

I hope you're feeling better soon.

I understand mourning food. I have a friend that was considering WLS, but she said the thought of not being to eat what and how much she wanted was unacceptable to her. Sadly, she continued to gain more weight and is now 200+ pounds overweight.

I think you made the right decision for you. It will get easier with each day.

Are you going for any type of counseling? I've heard the surgery alone is just part of the process. A lot of it is mental.

Good luck Lisa.

~ Darla ~ said...

I'm rooting for you, Lisa. It is unfortunate that one horrible person can be so mean and effect so many (for what?). You will get through this.

debbiesdelights said...

Thank you for the update, I'm so glad to hear that the surgery went ahead ok, sorry you're feeling so bad at the moment though :( keep going, you'll make it through

Anne said...

I'm sorry, but he's commenting on you again - the moment he could. He really is a nasty guy.