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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

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I am under 300 lbs. 297 as of last night. I did have a break down last night. I am mourning food. I am resentful of people who get to eat. :) I hope this passes.

24 comments:

Lori said...

Congratulations on entering the 200's!! I'm happy for you.

Making a major life change like you did is hard. Go ahead and feel those feelings, cry, weep & wail. Then pick yourself up and move forward. There will still be times when you miss some of your favorites, but it won't hurt as bad. You can make it.
Lori
PS I'm glad you made your blog private. That way we don't have to worry about stalkers.

Ashley said...

Wow! Soon, you'll be saying, "I'm under 200 lbs!" :)

It's definitely good to mourn the loss of food, something that was such a big part of your life. Feeling your feelings, working and crying them out, are really hard, but in the long run, it's so much better! I'm routing you on every day!

Denise said...

Hey Lisa! Thank you so much for sharing an honest account of this surgery! I am 1 month into the 6 month wait to have it. So far, I am in for September. In the meantime, I have "promised" my mom that I would do Weight Watchers to try that one more time before I commit to the surgery. I have honestly commited after reading what you have to say, to REALLY do the WW program. I pray I am successful. I only see the "after" and people who have lost over 100 lbs. I guess at that point, they don't remember what you are going through right now. I am happy for you that you are now going to live! I just pray that I am strong enough to do WW and if not, that I am strong enough to do the sleeve. Pray for me as I pray for you!

aimee_p said...

Lisa how awesome it that--you are out of the 300's. Try to think, "I will never go back there". I know it will be hard but you are amazing and your kids see you fighting and doing what is right for YOU and them. You will be up and running with them by the end of the summer=)
Keep it up and prayers coming your way for strength!

Heather @ A Table for One, Please said...

You are doing an amazing thing, taking hold of your life like this. You are strong, and you can do this! You are also in touch with your feelings about not being able to eat what you used to, and that is a good thing.

HUGS!

Katie J said...

Yay!!! I am with Aimee. I hope and pray you never ever see 300+ again!

It totally makes sense that you are mourning food - try to keep yourself occupied so you don't think about it too much.

mckay said...

YAY! Congrats on being in the 200's! And don't feel badly for having the feelings you are having! you are completely validated and right to have them. I have to believe it will get better.

Erika said...

Great job Lisa. You are on your way. I'm sorry that you are having to go through all of the emotional and physical pain simultaneously. Hang in there.

Sarah Williams said...

YAY for breaking into the 200's!!!!!! Congrats girl! You are doing amazing, keep that chin up and head held high. You will and can do this. As I have told you this will get easier. Next hurdle you will get to onederland! Keep up the amazing work!

Dawn said...

Getting in the 200s is a major milestone and a brilliant one too. As things are hard going, it won't feel too much like a huge celebration just yet but you will. You're bound to be feeling emotional after big life changing surgery. You will settle into a new normal one day at a time
Dawn

Christine said...

dude...it's going to be hard...you are mourning your crutch. I got to wean myself off mine...you got yours pulled out from under you.
It's going to be hard.
keep going.

Jess said...

That is SO awesome! I'm so happy for you! You will get through this mourning period. It will never be easy and you'll probably always struggle a little but now you have a huge tool to fight your battle. You can and you WILL do this! :)

Sarah said...

Stay positive lady!! It will get easier. I bet as you keep losing weight you will become more positive and motivated.

Sarah
notaneffingdiet.blogspot.com

Lyn said...

I mourned my crutches too. Yours is just so much more permanent... which is a good thing :) I am really happy for you getting into the 2's! Congrats!

KathyA999 said...

Wow, great milestone, congratulations! It does get better, it really does, when you finally get to eat actual food. Even mushies seem like the holy grail at this point, and I did go to mushies one day early, I just couldn't stand liquids-only any longer! :-) Just don't grab something out of a kid's grasp, LOL!

Laura P said...

Hooray for being in the 200's!

I think the mourning of food makes sense. As you heal physically, mentally, emotionally, the mourning and resentment should hopefully pass. Don't hold it in though (the thoughts), put it out there so those who support you can help however we can. :)

Marcy said...

Still praying for you and rooting you on. You can do this!

lots of love!
(my*joys)

MEG said...

Congratulations on breaking into the 200's! You continue to be in my thoughts.

MEG said...

Just looked at your ticker...it looks like you're 1/3 of the way to your goal already! You're doing great.

Beth said...

Congrats!!!!!!!

It's okay to grieve for what used to be.

And prayers for continued strengthening!

Amanda said...

Congrats on getting into the 200's! Everyone's said it so well -- you just had your crutch totally yanked out from under you. Yeah, you did it voluntarily and yeah, you knew it had to be done, but that doesn't change the fact that it's HARD! The benefits, though... once those show up more, I think some of the rough patches will seem less difficult.

Grace said...

Congratulations on this milestone!

I'm sorry I haven't been commenting, but for some reason I wasn't getting blogger updates, and the link you originally send didn't work. I figured you had changed your mind about allowing me into your blog and just decided to block me for some reason.

But today...all of a sudden I've gotten a whole boatload of updates from you. Yay!

So glad you did get the surgery, and even though you feel like crap right now, I know you will be glad as your weight loss continues.

Kelshei, the winter wolf said...

Welcome to Twoterville! I'm on my way to Onederland and milestones are awesome! You are doing fantastic! Keep it up! It does get easier over time.

~ Darla ~ said...

I can see that happening, Lisa, but you'll get over those feelings.