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Friday, August 31, 2012

Dee's Tips and Trivia

Questions –
~ Who are the 4 people on Mt. Rushmore?
Jefferson, Washington, Lincoln, Roosevelt
~ Who is Patricia Andrzejewski?
Pat Benatar
~ The expression “Do not fold, spindle, or mutilate” first appeared in the 1960’s, and applied to what?
IBM punched cards for computer programs

Tips –
~ Clean your headlights with toothpaste.  Apply with a dry cloth in a circular motion until all the grime comes off.  Rinse with water and wipe down.
~ Homemade dishwasher soap-Now I don’t have a dishwasher, but I’ve been told this works well.  Put 1 tsp oxygen bleach and ½ tsp Dawn dish soap in the dispenser.  Then ½ cup white vinegar in a bowl or cup on the TOP rack of the machine. 
~ Use a potato peeler to get even, small slices of veggies for salads.

Trivia –
~ Polar bears can smell a seal from 20 miles away.
~ An average of 3 billion cups of tea are consumed daily around the world.
~ The side of a hammer is called a cheek.

This date in history (August 31st)
~ 1887 – The kinetoscope was patented by Thomas Edison.  The device was used to produce moving pictures.
~ 1920 – The first news program to be broadcast on radio was aired.
~ 1940 – Lawrence Olivier and Vivian Leigh were married.
~ 1949 – Richard Gere was born.  J
~ 1987 – Michael Jackson’s “Bad” video aired for the first time.

Questions –
~ There are two US states each of which borders 8 other states.  What are their names?
~ Can you give a common last name for four famous brothers whose first names were Joe, John, Bob and Eddie?
~ Joe drank 1/3 of a glass of milk in one swallow, then drank 4/5 of the remaining milk in another swallow.  What fraction of the original milk was left?

Questions I can’t answer-
~ Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
~ If the professor on Gilligan’s Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can’t he fix a hole in a boat?
~ Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

Quote –
“The whole of life is but a moment of time.  It is our duty, therefore to use it, not misuse it.”  Plutarch


Here we are at the last holiday of the summer.  Go out and make it one safe and spectacular weekend!


Dee

Monday, August 27, 2012

Home

Just moved back in last night after being in a hotel for a month while our house was repaired.  So much to do, so much to think about.  I don't know where to go from here.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Feeling Beat down...

My birthday is in 3 days.  I will be 35 and I this time last year I had soooo many dreams about whatI would do to celebrate turning 35.  #1., I thought I would be at goal weight.  I thought my surgery would be like every one else and I would not have complications.  I thought I would be low enough in weight to zip line.  I did not imagine I would be living in a hotel with five kids and a husband because my house flooded.  I had a goal to go tubing on the lake.  Last year although I went on the boat which at the time was a major accomplishment, I could not tube because I was still too fat.  This summer I was going to go back and tube.  I have not been to the lake, I can't face another failure.  My surgery gave me a much better quality of life, but then caused a lifetime of dieting in order to say under 1200 calories per day in order to not GAIN weight.  There is NO WAY that without my sleeve getting fixed I can stay between 600-800 calories per day in order to LOSE.  I will now be fighting to stay fat forever since my surgery money has to go towards my house ins. deductible.  I am feeling so bogged down right now.  I can't imagine accepting this body for the rest of my life.  I need to let go of my dreams but don't know how.  What keeps m going is looking at my kids and husband an trying to feel grateful for what I have.  And I am.  I'm still grateful for every step.  I am grateful for the ability to be a better mom and wife.  But... It's hard to let go of a dream.  It's hard to let go of something you have imagined your entire life.  My first memory of trying to lose weight was at 5 years old.  I was told by my mom that I was getting to chubby for a bathing suit.  By 7 she told me I need make-up so at least my face would be pretty until I could lose weight.  At 9 she told me if I could not lose 20 pounds by the end of summer I would not get new school clothes.  School started in a month.  I didn't lose and I didn't get new clothes for a couple of years.  I had been dreaming of fitting in, looking like everyone else, being "pretty" since I was old enough to have memories and now I am just supposed to let go.  Now my fight becomes starving just so I can not gain weight.  I am bitter about this change of focus.  I am mad at myself because I chose this.  I am mad because the surgery that saved my life is also the one that changed my body forever.  Most sleeve or WLS patients I know have to eat under 1200 to maintain.  It's normal in the WLS world.  BUT, that is to MAINTAIN.  NOt to lose.   To lose the weight they needed to eat far less.  I know my sleeve can get fixed to provide the restriction I need to help be reach my goals, but now it's years away since I can no longer afford the loan due to my house.  This means at least two years of fighting, starving and being cranky just to maintain.  Yes, I guess I am feeling sorry for myself.  I am still the fat girl at church,in my neighborhood, my kids school, in my own home.  Fatty never left me.  She was just sitting around waiting for an opportunity to tell me I was stuck with her forever and rub it in my face.  Looks like she got her way.  That's what I get for thinking it could turn out a different way.  I'm sure my blog stalkers will enjoy this post.  You were right.  I have failed AGAIN.  I hope that brings you the joy you so desperately want at my expense.  You were right.