I am a model!!!!

Ok, maybe not, but dang it, I look GOOD in this pic! Thank the good Lord, I like myself in a pic where I am not sitting, not hiding behind someone else, not looking up to hide chins, not angling to the side... Straight on me. Right in the middle with my hair blowing in the wind being the sexy girl I am... lol :) Ok, maybe that is too much. :) It feels good to feel good if that makes sense. I am 263, THREE pounds away from 100 lost. SLOW going, but I have non-scale-victories almost everyday that I can focus on. We had our annual 4th of July party and I played musical chairs! :) Then, when we went to the fireworks show, I walked a LOT, didn't need to stop and sit AND I CLIMBED A 4 foot FENCE! :) We were on our way to the fireworks and everyone was walking across the field as a shortcut. When I got up there, I didn't see an opening in the fence. I thought of going under, but I would get dirty and everyone around me was going over. so... I said... "screw it! Just try Lisa!" to myself and started over. I had help on the other side getting down, but by golly, I climbed the damn thing myself. I cooked for this years festivities WITHOUT a chair, stood the entire time, took tons of pics, had a great time. Amen for this choice I made. IT WAS THE RIGHT ONE FOR ME and since I am in a spunky mood, I would like to say BITE ME to everyone who talked crap, who expected me to fail, who said I would chicken out, who said I wasn't ready, who stalked me :), who put me down for being so open here with my struggles. My name is Lisa and I am REAL. I don't sugar coat, preach to people about what they should do, I don't bully people to try things my way, and I am changing my life. My name is Lisa and I am happy and PROUD of myself and all that I accomplished even BEFORE my surgery. My name is Lisa and I like who I am and what made me this way. :) I admit I am insecure. I feel pain when others don't like me. I have low self esteem that I am working on. I have a GREAT family and a few wonderful friends. I like my honesty. I hate mean people. I have a painful past. I am in charge of me and have a problem when I can't control my surroundings. I am a FOOD ADDICT. When you have been to hell, you appreciate everything much more than you would have had you never dealt with the darkness.

Below: my back yard. We had a dunk tank this year. :) Our party had 15 adults and 22 kids.

Below: that is me on the left. :)

Below: that is the fence I climbed. Doesn't look like much to most, but it was at least 4 feet tall and for a girl who this time last year could not walk more than a few steps, it might as well have been a 10 foot wall.